THE SKY IS FALLING BUT I’M OKAY
Mental outlook is everything. For a lot of October, I caved into my depression and went around life feeling as if the literal sky was falling on my skeleton, that I was surely doomed. There was certainly in October moments of loss, cause for sadness, grief. Things didn’t always go my way. I behaved in ways I wish I had not. In some private moments with people I care about, the child overcame the woman. Tantrums and selfishness ensued. Still the sky and the earth was very much intact,. I was physically healthy, very busy in my writing and had a lot of things to be grateful for. Yet I let the sadness overtake me and outshine everything else.
It was only some friends of mine reaching out selflessly putting me back on steady ground, healing the child for a moment so the woman could find her feet. I had epiphany: I am very alive. I have so much to be grateful for. I have so much pleasure to experience if I will just see that and not this imaginary falling sky that perpetually I feel will flatten me physically and flattens me emotionally in a very real way. I bounced b