Inspecting the Meaning of Expecting

August 29, 2018

Inspecting the Meaning of Expecting


Being a mother is tired and re-worn as ancient jeans.

Being a mother is completely unique. Brand new.

I am doing the same things women who have given birth have always done.

I’m so alone. Nobody has ever done this before.

I have never felt this kind of love.

I have never suffered like this.

I do not care.

This is monumentally important.


So goes my mind. It’s a carousel ride, every day.

And I wonder: Do other parents feel this way?

When I was newly pregnant with my firstborn child, the woman on the cover of “What to Expect When You’re Expecting” looked so placid. Like this: