tell it to me all over again

tell it to me all over again

by Vanessa Maki

the desire to fix us sways it reminds me of birds

navigating strong winds where their wings can't flap right

i devote myself & then you demote me to second best, second choice,

a second-place prize

what would you do if i twisted it? if i flipped you around so you would be in my position would you beg for

another love confession? would i have you on your knees

like i'm the one

you pray to?

tell me you love me tell it to me

all over again tell me you need me tell it to me

all over again

you lead me

down a rabbit hole where i almost can't believe you have ever really cared i get bombarded by

all these moments that start carving me like people do to pumpkins

or maybe i'm more

like meat sliced put on your plate

so you can

devour

me

tell it to me

all over again that you actually do

love me

tell it to me

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Photo: "Sink II" by Vanessa Maki

Vanessa Maki is a writer (& other things) who is queer & full of black girl magic. She's been published in Enclave, Faded Out, Rag Queen Periodical, Occulum, Five:2:One Magazine, SYS, horny poetry review, sublet press, Entropy, Susan/The Journal & is forthcoming in Sorority Mansion, The Cerurove & Sad Girl Review. She is founder/editor of yell/shout/scream & rose quartz journal. Twitter: ahumantornado.


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